So we're 3 weeks in and its been up and down. At the beginning of this week I was feeling really optimistic because my shoulder was feeling very relaxed. In general, I was having less episodes of pain and my little stretching exercises actually didn't even hurt at all. That was pretty incredible.
But as the week progressed, I realized it wasn't as fabulous as I had thought. I guess it will continue to be a fluctuation throughout this entire process. I am very happy that I experienced the greatness of no pain at the beginning of the week. Its good to remember that it can be that way and is a good reminder that hopefully it will be like that always in the future.
World Cup Games start tomorrow. If anyone finds the games streaming online...let me know!
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
Scary Dreams
I woke up this morning confused. For the second time I had a dream that really felt real, yet I was doing things I knew I couldn't be doing.
I can't remember the first dream which happened last week, but it was a similar story line to the one I'm about to tell you.
I was with the team (a mix of Stanford and USA) and we were playing in a multi-day, 1 game/day tournament. Every morning we'd go to the practice pool to warm-up, but it was more like my rec swim days at Del Amigo; no goals, skinny lanes, no gutters, and lots of waves. I knew that I was injured so I couldn't play in the games, but I was still getting in and warming up...SWIMMING. (Or trying to at least) One of these morning swims we had to warm-up about 2 hrs before the game started....not sure how this happened, must have been bad scheduling. Anyway, on this day we had to be fast because the game was soon, but I could not get my suit on! Everyone else was in the pool and I just could not get ready in time. So disheartening. Finally I dove in as my teammates were getting out.
Change scene: Adam pulls me over to give me the swim set I should do during the game since I can't play....that's when I get really nervous. It is just NOW that I realize I can't swim, I'm not allowed to swim yet even though I've been getting in the pool all week! ahhhh! So Adam is confused, I'm angry and scared that I ruined my shoulder forever, and then I realize its a dream and wake up.
In the dream I remember saying or thinking, "this is why they tell me I can't get in the pool...its because they know I'll accidentally start doing something I'm not supposed to."
Such dream wisdom.
I can't remember the first dream which happened last week, but it was a similar story line to the one I'm about to tell you.
I was with the team (a mix of Stanford and USA) and we were playing in a multi-day, 1 game/day tournament. Every morning we'd go to the practice pool to warm-up, but it was more like my rec swim days at Del Amigo; no goals, skinny lanes, no gutters, and lots of waves. I knew that I was injured so I couldn't play in the games, but I was still getting in and warming up...SWIMMING. (Or trying to at least) One of these morning swims we had to warm-up about 2 hrs before the game started....not sure how this happened, must have been bad scheduling. Anyway, on this day we had to be fast because the game was soon, but I could not get my suit on! Everyone else was in the pool and I just could not get ready in time. So disheartening. Finally I dove in as my teammates were getting out.
Change scene: Adam pulls me over to give me the swim set I should do during the game since I can't play....that's when I get really nervous. It is just NOW that I realize I can't swim, I'm not allowed to swim yet even though I've been getting in the pool all week! ahhhh! So Adam is confused, I'm angry and scared that I ruined my shoulder forever, and then I realize its a dream and wake up.
In the dream I remember saying or thinking, "this is why they tell me I can't get in the pool...its because they know I'll accidentally start doing something I'm not supposed to."
Such dream wisdom.
Monday, August 2, 2010
2 week appt
Updates:
Sleeping on or slightly on my left side....awesome!
Don't have to ice as much as I was....convenient!
Stitches out....freedom!
and...dun dun na naaaaaaaaa
I can SHOWWWAAAAAAAAA
Stood under the rain shower for a super long time and cleansed and cleansed. Hopefully this rash thing on my arm is officially gone!
Sleeping on or slightly on my left side....awesome!
Don't have to ice as much as I was....convenient!
Stitches out....freedom!
and...dun dun na naaaaaaaaa
I can SHOWWWAAAAAAAAA
Stood under the rain shower for a super long time and cleansed and cleansed. Hopefully this rash thing on my arm is officially gone!
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